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So after a full day I finally get a chance to sit down with my borrowed internet. 


Today was my dear Ellen's birthday, yes, first birthday.  We had a small party with family and friends.  she has grown so much and is strong.  I love her with all my heart and soul.  Can't wait for the 21'st !  even with the hard times lately (reasons for which I lost my internet connection and I am doing this from a borrowed one) it was all forgotten today. 

Now she had a lot of fun, she crawled all around the flat keeping people looking at their feet.  she played with her cousin Lizzy, grandparents gave her presents, grownups had a nice wine and food. 

We had cake my mum made(her's are divine) and the little lamb is still crawling, she will soon fall I hope, there is still people here (uncles who believe they have such a right and aunties who are still playing wit her).

I am so happy I can't even write straight here and have no idea what to not down.  I just needed to keep this here. 

Later I hope to have a chance to get one and give more details.
Sitting:
The Flat
Feeling::
hyper So bloody happy!
Singing::
Still in the party s what ever song comes in!
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So yes, I finally have some free time and boy do I have stories. 

First, I got to meet a friend of mine from far away.  Tom had surprised me with tickets for Waiting for Godot in Bath.  Didn't question why that one as it comes to London in May but I just thought he wanted a nice holiday before I got a week of night shows and a matinee.  So we go to Bath Friday.  We spend the day walking around, Tom keeps looking around as if looking for something.  I ignore it.  there was a comedy festival, saw the the Austen center, great day in other words.  Then that night I am there waiting to get inside and Tom taps my shoulder and there he is talking with a friend of ours!  She came here on a theater class trip and was watching that play and Tom knew it which is why he was insisting on Bath,  We talked a bit, saw the play, she made plans for maybe meeting us when they got to London latter and asked Tom about getting to Oxford (she couldn't make it but got to Guildford where she saw his sisters house, two statues and of course the man himself, or at least his tomb).  She is great in person, they had a lot to talk about because they are both working on making a biography, well his is more official and hers is more novel type.  We talked for a long while before having to go inside the play, which was incredible.  I am hoping to keep contact her more.

On a separate note, I spent this week not feeling to good but now I am better.  I don't think it has anything to do with that crazy week.  I hope not.

The crazy week is a week of performance back in the university theater.  We ran Jesus Christ Superstar for a week.  Oh the production was great, everything went perfectly.  Voices got a bit stretched but we are getting through it.  Harry is ecstatic, he is sure the company can put something up for summer.  My family went and loved it, even my grandmother who is very catholic, she loved it.  And the tie with the bands was great having the music live just made it superb.  And we have to try and get more plays where we can interact with the audience as we did here, everyone got in on the fun!

Last note, mum's family came this Easter, that is the grandmother I was talking there.  She and my grandfather had not come for a while.  We got together for an Easter breakfast before seeing Sunday's showing at 2:30.  They were so happy to see all of us and of meeting Ellen.  The week was crazy but it was great now I hope I get over this cold fast.

I need to write more details of all this.  for now good bye.
Sitting:
Balcony
Feeling::
cheerful cheerful
Singing::
Radio playing behind me
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Title refers to an actual quote form my friend and co worker at university Harry when I turned up to work on the theater again, this time for longer.  I have been working there for all this time, first in their Christmas production and now the one he wants to make (first directorial job for him) for Easter and that whole week.  I hadn't been able to bring myself to leave Ellen alone with mum or Tom or anyone for that matter but luckily the first few days they let me bring her along.  She has been so well behaved when she comes, specially now that she is in other people's arms other mine.  I had almost forgotten the rush but now I am back I can't get enough.  Some days Ellen stays at home others she comes around.  I have been taken as part of the main cast, so I am going to be singing (which is not my forte mind you, Harry just thought an amateur, emphasis on amateur, opera) for two hours every night for six days and two hours during Sunday in the matinee.  I am so happy. Oh and also, Tom made it official between him and me.  I am incredibly happy.
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Sitting:
Harry's flat-supposed to be working.
Feeling::
jubilant jubilant
Singing::
Jesus Christ Superstar- must practice!
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Tonight was Bonfire Night.  Last friday was halloween or Samahain.  It's the first time I did something important in the feast that friday.  Ellen was blessed and as much as I don't believe that deeply this time it was different.  I guess with Tom going through withdrawal from nicotine by cold turkey technique and medical problems with Ellen, it touched me deeper.  She behaved perfectly, didn't fuss, didn't cry.  I was so proud.  Tom was proud as well, he asked the priestess from a blessing as well, old friend of his mother's and she did it too.  It wasn't as much of a party as other years but maybe it was just me...  As for Bonfire Night we went to Wimbledon display, they had a fair and everything.  I thought Ellen would cry but she just seemed mesmerized by everything.  This years things have been a little hard but these last few days its been getting better. 
Sitting:
Home
Feeling::
calm calm
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There are very few times when you can say everything truly has changed.   I am still over the moon, though mum keeps telling me to just give it time and the feeling will pass.  Then she laughs and accepts it really doesn't.  I had about 10 weeks to sleep so I haven't fussed much about feeding time about every three hours.  Neither has Tom.  He is helping all he can before term starts and he goes back to work.  We spend most of our time in the flat, my best mate has been spending some time here, after having missed her for a month as she went on holiday to, as she calls it, the motherland.  Her companion is there too, my siblings, Tom's brothers (even the youngest who i watch closely because who knows what he will do).   And she recently met her cousin Liz.  I am still not sure just how good I am at this, I hope much better than I think I am. 
Sitting:
Room, next to the cot as always now.
Feeling::
hyper hyper
Singing::
You Belong To Me-Jason Wade
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Well, things have certainly been different from now on.  a big step has been taken and now nothing is the same.  Ive spent the last month up and down, no rest, no breathers, and somehow it feels like the best month of my life.  Money has been tight but maybe by halfway this month I will be back at work, even if I don't want too.  People say this changes your life and it really does. 

Thing have been so different, my relationship with my parents has gotten better, mum and dad have been there for me at all moments. 

I can't wait for this to reach the last step in this journey and I can bring my biggest joy home.  Even with all the downs there have been, the ups make up for everything.
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Sitting:
home
Feeling::
jubilant jubilant
Singing::
Gun's and Roses- Sweet Child O' Mine
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...what he meant was, "I love you." "-The Princes Bride (1987)

Very dramatic title.  I know I have been insufferable lately and that the man who is destined to put up with it has done a marvellous job.  He has taken my complaints like a true fighter.  Apparently I haven’t been so bad as today he gave me something that made me very happy.  I had read the books of Lewis Carroll's letters before but had wanted to get them for a while.  Almost impossible to get them.  This afternoon coming back from my classes I find a parcel with his name on it opened.  And him there holding two books, the first volume of the Letters and the novel "Still She Haunts Me." (Not a favourite but I still found it good).  Now mind you I had seen him looking around for the Letters, I have no idea where he bought them finally or how much he wasted.  He gave me those two today and I am ecstatic.  The second volume he will give me by mid-August when I give him a type of present.  He has been waiting on me hand and foot and now he gives me these books.  I think I should tone down on my demands on him.  

On a different note I have been killing time with programs.  At the moment I have rented "The Tudors".  It's not so bad; I am not to sure on the casting though Rhys-Meyers do a good job on his character.  I feel much attached to their Catherine, and Sam Neil is devilish as Cardinal Wolsey.  The Tudors are not my favourite part of history (more attached to Queen Victoria and Queen Elizabeth) but it has been good so far.  Going to see if finish it before I have to return it.
Sitting:
Bedroom
Feeling::
ecstatic ecstatic
Singing::
Utopia-Alaniss Morissette
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Well, eleven weeks with no updates.  Why?  For health reasons I have been kept under house arrest and I am going mad!  I am only allowed out to finish my classes and then back to this little space!  I am beginning to feel the walls close in on me.  At least I have finished my work in record time.  I hve leaned to cook several meals and I have kept the place in mint condition really.  I have had my friends come over, pleading them to give me some company.  I can't wait for this to be over...its not so bad, but he confinement is getting to me.
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Sitting:
...home
Feeling::
anxious anxious
Singing::
All my collection
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So boredom and lack of anything more interesting to post, I went around looking for random things to put here.  There first one I nicked of  quenbolyn, the second one I got of the meme_express comunnity. 




Yes the last few in the list are rather quickly made.  I ran out of ideas for a moment there.
Sitting:
My Couch
Feeling::
awake awake
Singing::
I Want to Hold Your Hand-T.V.Carpio (Across The Universse)
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Well, I begin by saying that at least I feel relaxed, having spent the weekend on holiday.  Went to Christ Church and it was just simply beautiful.  The little hotel was nice, walking distance from the college so we could go easily.  Also got to see some of Oxford-shire which I hadn't been to in a while, with work and studies and all.  We wanted to catch a play but there was none at the moment, but we might go back this weekend to see Alice Through the Looking Glass if all goes well.  The trip got a little bumpy towards the end,  Tom has been trying to hard on some aspects in life and not taking actions in his hands.  It was the damper on an otherwise perfect weekend.  We actually got to see some of the sites we wanted to.  Got to take a tour around the place.  We kind of missed a part because we stayed behind on a specific area.  Well, I don't really have much to say, seeing as the air in this flat is still a bit thick from our confrontation, but it was a wonderful trip and if lucky, I might get to see it again this week end.
Sitting:
My Bedroom
Feeling::
hopeful hopeful
Singing::
Iris- Goo Goo Dolls
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