Life · what · is · it · but · a · dream?

Today was my dear Ellen's birthday, yes, first birthday.  We had a small party with family and friends.  she has grown so much and is strong.  I love her with all my heart and soul.  Can't wait for the 21'st !  even with the hard times lately (reasons for which I lost my internet connection and I am doing this from a borrowed one) it was all forgotten today. 

Now she had a lot of fun, she crawled all around the flat keeping people looking at their feet.  she played with her cousin Lizzy, grandparents gave her presents, grownups had a nice wine and food. 

We had cake my mum made(her's are divine) and the little lamb is still crawling, she will soon fall I hope, there is still people here (uncles who believe they have such a right and aunties who are still playing wit her).

I am so happy I can't even write straight here and have no idea what to not down.  I just needed to keep this here. 

Later I hope to have a chance to get one and give more details.

Sitting:	The Flat
Feeling::	So bloody happy!
Singing::	Still in the party s what ever song comes in!

Thing have been so different, my relationship with my parents has gotten better, mum and dad have been there for me at all moments. 

I can't wait for this to reach the last step in this journey and I can bring my biggest joy home.  Even with all the downs there have been, the ups make up for everything.

Sitting:	home
Feeling::	jubilant
Singing::	Gun's and Roses- Sweet Child O' Mine

There is a time in everyone’s life when we come to a place where we have to decide what we will do.  For a moment we want to be correct and think about everyone around you.  Must make the best decision for them.  Then we become selfish.  What is the best for me.  We want to make others happy but then, what about you’re self.  So we end up taking the selfish decision. 

Boy, have gotten philosophical.

Classes started once more.  Last semester and it's of to the real world.  Bright side, I could have a job secure by the time I finish if I make certain decisions.  The thing is, do I take the plunge.  Even if I am not leaving my job at the bookstore, you can't live out of a part-time salary.  I don’t want to make the selfish decision but so far, that road seems the brightest.  God I hate crossroads in life.  I love the stage, but I am not going to follow up that road, I want to work on the back.  But I have to start somewhere.  I think I will make the selfish decisions.  My manager can get someone else to work full-time at the bookstore; I keep my low-income wager for now.

On other news, I promised Mika I would up load the stories to fanfiction.net and I will keep it.  The Minerva is coming up.  The other one I had finished is being evaluated so as soon as I get it back it will be up.   Come on finish reading it Cris!   Family wise, my grandparents left earlier today, I’m going to miss them but I promised more calls this year.  I just hope Tom is keen on the idea.  Also, Alex, my younger brother just had the best Christmas since mum had left, with her back he seems a lit brighter.  I don’t want to think of a ten year old depressed but it seemed he was.   I love the little bugger.  Enough with sad things!  The annual trip to Daresbury I give has been altered this year.  Being the birthday of the one in charge of food and lodging I agreed with him of course!  I can use my birthday latter to go to the Daresbury Parish again.  Well Tom wanted to make the trip to Oxford this year, staying near Christ Church and on the 27^th visit the college.  So that is the plan this year, according to him, if we are going to commemorate anyone might as well do it where that person spent most his life (Mika you know who we are talking about).  So I ill stay that weekend over there, Tom is asking his brother for his car to save on travel. 

Well that is a worthy update, best wishes in this New Year!

Sitting:	My Bedroom
Feeling::	optimistic
Singing::	Gorillaz- Last Living Souls

So my boyfriend’s sister in law gave birth on Tuesday the 13th, to a beautiful baby girl.  Her name is Elizabeth Terry.  She just got released from the hospital on Wednesday with Thursday being the first day she spent with her new family.  She was born about three weeks early but the doctors said everything should be fine.  Fortunately her new very proud Daddy has the tools for getting me pictures so i can show this lovely lady around.

Sitting:	My Bed
Feeling::	chipper
Singing::	【Trans-Siberian Orchestra】Christmas Eve Sarejevo

Well today has been a productive day for my journal.  I just don't feel tired at all and decided to post a bit of what happened tonight.  Well it was a mass thing, both my family and my boyfriends family celebrated.  Sure we had all been celebrating since last night when we went to Batter Sea, but tonight we went first to my family’s home because mum wanted my younger brother and sister to go to bed early, so we did a small bonfire and we burned some guys they had made.  It might be slightly scary for some to see young children and teen agers burning effigies.  After that we went to my boyfriend’s house, where his family had their own bonfire and a very angry sister-in-law because my boyfriend’s brother had not let her stay yesterday for fear of all the gunpowder in the air.  She is eight months pregnant and he has become more eccentric with every passing month.   I got home around 12:30 and I was still on a high from all the parties.  I love this day honestly.  Now it's time to begin planning for winter, so much more celebration!

Sitting:	home
Feeling::	awake
Singing::	none saddly, can't make to much noise >

Remember, remember the Fifth of November,

The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,

I know of no reason

Why Gunpowder Treason

Should ever be forgot.

Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes, t'was his intent

To blow up King and Parliament.

Three-score barrels of powder below

To prove old England's overthrow;

By God's providence he was catch'd

With a dark lantern and burning match.

Holloa boys, holloa boys, let the bells ring.

Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!

A penny loaf to feed the Pope

A farthing o' cheese to choke him.

A pint of beer to rinse it down.

A faggot of sticks to burn him.

Burn him in a tub of tar.

Burn him like a blazing star.

Burn his body from his head.

Then we'll say ol' Pope is dead.

Hip hip hoorah!

Hip hip hoorah hoorah!

I am very aware that the second stanza is no longer use because of contents, half of my family is Catholic so no problems there.  Still Guy Fawkes Day come on!  For one night let me act like a pyromaniac savage!  Those of you who don't know what this is all about, the fifth of November of 1605 Guy Fawkes and other conspirators planned to blow up Parliament, but where caught and executed for treason.  Now we commemorate this day by lighting bonfires, fireworks and burning "guys", which children take some days before asking for "a penny for the guy" in order to get the money for fire works.  "Guys" are effigies of Guy Fawkes and sometimes another figure might accompany him, depends on the times.  Can't wait for all the celebrations tonight!

Oh and yes, this is what V was talking about in V for Vendetta .  I wish I could get my hands on that set of fireworks.

Sitting:	University
Feeling::	Excited!!!
Singing::	Stolen Child-Loreena McKennitt

 Wtih a hectic October because the Acting Troup in the university wanted to have something in time for Hallows Eve and my own personal traditions for that day I finally have a day to do nothing and just lay on the couch all night.  That is before we begin preparations for Guy Fawkes Day and Christmas.

Sitting:	Couch
Feeling::	relaxed
Singing::	Spice Up Your Life-Spice Girls